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[superniceone]

"Sure," he says, stabbing at his own. God!! Why does he have to be so awkward!! "Uh, you know. If you don't like it— there are plenty of eggs. I could try again in the morning."

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"Oh," Verso says, picking up what Gustave is putting down but a little surprised nonetheless. He hadn't expected Gustave to want to stay; his place is sad and impersonal, whereas Gustave has a nice, warm home filled with people that he loves. Verso knows which he'd choose, given the option.

All the same: "Yeah, it's terrible." It's a good crepe that's done nothing to deserve this abuse. "You should definitely try again."

[superniceone]

Gustave's residence feels more like a dollhouse than his actual home. At least there's very little pretense with Verso's; it might as well be a hotel, from what he's read about hotels.

"It's what any proper scientist would do," he says with a crooked smile at him, grateful, as if thanking him for doing him a favor. "Just a bit rusty. I've got high hopes for the morning."

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"We'll call this the prototype," he says before taking a bite of the crepe, which is clearly not terrible. In an attempt to impress-slash-amuse Gustave with his use of engineering terms: "It just needs some updated blueprints, some... revised calculus."

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Gustave leans back in his chair with a grimace, glancing over his shoulder. "What was that?" he calls to the empty doorway. "Esquie is asking for me?"

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Verso kicks Gustave in the shin underneath the table, but he's laughing. (Somewhat sheepishly, because it does bring to mind all of the times that he made up an excuse to flee from Gustave.) "See if I offer to be your assistant now."

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Gustave's shoulders shake a little with laughter, and he finishes maybe half his plate before he stands up. The way he goes to clean the dishes he'd used while cooking is such a deeply ingrained habit that he doesn't realize how easily it might come across as too comfortable in someone else's home.

"So you really don't mind if I stay the night?" He's pretty sure he was able to infer the answer, but he'd really like to hear it out loud.

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It probably is too comfortable, but more than that, the sight of Gustave going to wash up reminds Verso that he isn't, in fact, living in a hut anymore; he gets up himself, taking his dish to the sink to rinse.

"Should I?" It didn't occur to him to mind. Gustave is his— well. They've yet to define what he is, but he's certainly something. A friend who Verso says increasingly romantic things to during sex, at least. "Are the eggs really going to be that bad?"

But he has a feeling he knows what Gustave wants from him, so he turns to lean against the counter, eyes on Gustave. "...I like you," he says, and he realizes he's not sure he's ever said it in those exact words before. "And I'd like to wallow with you, if you'll let me."

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Verso has been trying to end things with him before they ever began. Gustave isn't certain about much anymore in this strange new version of the world he'd known before his Expedition, but he's fairly sure that Verso— well, likes him, yes, but that he's humoring him, too. It feels like a distinct line he needs to observe; that if he crosses it too soundly, Verso might disappear from his life entirely again.

He chuckles at the joke, hates himself for the childish way his heart clenches at the I like you. For just a moment, he allows himself to focus on washing the pan he'd used. "I care about you— more than what is likely reasonable," he says. "You are always welcome to wallow with me."

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Definitely more than is reasonable, because reasonable would be washing his hands of Verso entirely. He's had ample opportunity to do it. The first time Verso had lied to him; the second time Verso had lied to him; the third time— At this point, Gustave is obviously just a glutton for punishment.

Before the confrontation with Renoir, he'd let himself experience some hesitant optimism for the first time in decades, but he's been disabused of that notion; he knows it's selfish to draw Gustave into Verso's destructive orbit, but it's growing increasingly difficult not to be selfish. He'll end this soon, though, really, before it gets too serious.

Unwittingly, he smiles. "Then let's wallow, Monsieur Unreasonable."

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He wonders for a minute if he should go home, grab some clothes, let Emma know he'll be out for the night— but she's a smart woman, and after Verso visiting two days in a row he imagines she can put the pieces together herself.

"I'm going to grab that book," he says. He heads to the living room, stopping only long enough to briefly trap Verso against the counter to kiss him again. Even if he does notice Verso's room is part of an ongoing existential nightmare, he won't say anything about it; he's much more interested in just being comfortably horizontal for at long as he's able.

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It's probably hard not to notice that it's part of an ongoing existential nightmare: the curtains are drawn shut so as to block out any light, and the bed is unmade, the mattress the sort of lumpy that only comes from having someone lie, unmoving, on it for about seven days straight. The only joyful things in this room are a small, ceramic model train on the night stand and an unopened paint set on the desk.

"Don't mind the, uh..." Everything. Verso pulls open the curtains and hastily pulls the covers up on the bed. "I just wasn't expecting company in here."

With a sweeping gesture, he says, "Make yourself at home."

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"You weren't? Strange. I'm sure you could tell I had a non-stop parade of company through mine," Gustave says a little wryly, ambling over to inspect the little train set. "I'm not sure I'll ever have cause to go back to the manor myself, but you should show me your room there if we do."

But he perches on the bed, sliding back to sit against the headboard with book in hand and his legs stretched in front of him. The message he's trying to convey is don't let me interrupt your lolling about — he isn't expecting to be entertained.

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Verso did have a nonstop parade of company through his room pre-Fracture (he was popular!), but he keeps his mouth shut on that topic. The idea of returning to an empty manor is painful, but he shrugs and says, "Yeah, sure." It'll never happen, anyway.

He settles on the bed, too, feeling strangely awkward despite the fact that they had sex in the living room not long ago, and he didn't feel awkward about that at all. He'd been popular, yes, but even pre-Fracture he never had someone make him dinner and then companionably read beside him. It reminds him a little of playing house, except Clea always made him be the family dog.

"I usually just lie here and look tormented," he jokes. It's true, but he absolutely can't do that in front of Gustave now.

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There are few enough signs of life here that it's about what he expected, honestly. It reminds him of how he'd spent the week following his mother's Gommage.

"Okay," Gustave says, unfazed, already distracted by his book as he taps the top of his thigh. "Just put your head here so I can reach it."

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Oh. He should be offended that Gustave is barely paying attention to him, but it actually makes it easier to comply. He curls up on the mattress, head resting against Gustave's leg.

"I haven't read that one yet," he says after a long moment. Verso hasn't read any of the books on his shelf yet. "It would only be fair to read it aloud."

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"I can't help but feel your voice would be much better suited for this than mine, but alright." Gustave flips back to the start, and he'll read for Verso in a soft, measured voice; it's not wholly unlike the time he's spent when he's volunteered time at the orphanage. Life was weird and sad for a guy with a death sentence who desperately wanted children of his own; it was one of the more worthwhile ways he'd occasionally spent weekends.

Occasionally he strokes Verso's head, gentle and fond between page turns. If left unchecked, he'll just keep reading until it's a more reasonable time to actually go to sleep.

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It does get left unchecked, if only because at some point during Gustave's book-on-tape reading, Verso passes the fuck out to the soft sound of his voice. He usually has difficulty getting to sleep, but it's been a tiring day of pretending that everything is okay for Gustave's sake. There is, unfortunately, a little drool involved.

[superniceone]

Well! Okay!! A little inconvenient but okay!!!!

Actually Gustave is mostly just kind of tiredly amused that this is the second time he's lulled a Dessendre to sleep in pretty much this exact position (and the second time he's been drooled on, too.) Even sitting up in bed is more comfortable than some of the normal nights camping out on the ground during the Expedition; he'll settle in to sleep with his hand resting a little protectively (and a little possessively, too, to be honest) on Verso's side.

Wow! He sure would like to fall in love under normal, rational circumstances someday! Must be nice!!

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There's light streaming in through the window when he wakes up, which is unusual, but it's not actually the thing that wakes him up. There's a knock at the door — which he blatantly ignores at first, but then it continues more insistently, and he blearily crawls out of bed, wiping the corner of his mouth and praying that Gustave didn't notice the drool.

When he opens the door, it's to the image of Maelle standing in the doorway. "Is Gustave here?" she says, and he'll admit only to himself that it hurts. "I know you aren't ready to talk yet," she continues, as if she's quoting him (because she is). "But we had this weird conversation yesterday morning and then he never showed back up at the house, and I know you, um..."

There's an awkward pause, during which it seems like she's waiting for him to fill in the nature of their relationship. Finally: "Talk? Sometimes. So I thought you might know where he is."

Half-asleep, unsure if Gustave even wants him to admit that he's here, and intensely aware of the fact that he'd never even buttoned his pants back up again yesterday, Verso's response is a very eloquent, "Uh."

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Gustave is half-aware of Verso getting up to get the door, but he doesn't actually snap awake until he hears Maelle's voice. He grimaces then, and — for a brief, guilty moment — considers continuing to hide back here and letting Verso deal with it. And then he thinks of the way Verso had literally fled through his bedroom window instead of dealing with her face to face, and he pushes himself out of bed.

There's absolutely no hiding the way he's slept here in the exact same clothes that he was wearing before. "Maelle," he interrupts, approaching the doorway and trying to rub the crick out of the back of his neck. With a gentle hand he coaxes Verso aside, but even then he's careful to stand in a way that doesn't make it seem like he's suggesting she come inside.

It's a little odd, struggling between the impulse he has to shield both of them from stress, from upset.

"I'll be home in a little while. What do you need?"

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It's shameful how quickly he steps aside to let Gustave speak to Maelle instead, but being face-to-face with her for even this short amount of time makes something twist in his stomach. Whatever lightened mood he'd managed to cultivate yesterday comes crashing down, a dark cloud settling over him as he watches Gustave and Maelle converse.

"Gustave," she says, relieved. "I was— worried about you. You said all of those things, and then you just disappeared." After spending the entire day holed up in his room. It's enough to give a girl who's terrified of loss an aneurysm.

"...I guess now I know where all that came from," she says, looking Gustave up and down, not necessarily accusatory—there's no malice behind it—but certainly implying that Verso persuaded him into it.

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It's true that Gustave is depressed, and it's also true that he's spent some time struggling to reconcile the reality of the world. More importantly, though— he hasn't spent the last sixty-seven years being battered physically and emotionally by the canvas, hasn't spent a literal lifetime grappling with his own identity, with his two families' worth. Gustave is tired, sure, but he's nowhere near real exhaustion yet, nowhere near real despair.

"Maelle." Which mostly means that his tone is sharp, a little reprimanding when he says her name. "What do you mean, 'I said all of those things'? You think Verso is the reason I expect you to keep your promises?" It is no more or less severe than any other scolding he's ever given.

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And, just like every time Gustave has ever scolded her, Maelle hangs her head — half in genuine contrition, half to try to make Gustave feel bad for scolding her!!!

"Don't reprimand me in front of Verso. He'll think you're mean."

He didn't say anything, for the record.

"I was just worried," she continues, eyes big and blue as she pouts. "I wanted to make sure you didn't skip town or something."

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"Not yet," Gustave says dryly. He leans his shoulder against the doorframe, reaching out to fix Maelle's collar in a gesture that is fully fatherly reflex, before he folds his arms loosely at his chest. "But I am sort of thinking about running off to the Continent with your brother. Maybe eloping in the Grandis settlement? Not sure yet. He listens to me." He'll apologize to Verso in a minute for including him in the stupid sibling squabble he's having with her. "Go home, I'll come back later."