It doesn't feel sweet. It feels a little greedy, if anything. He knows Monoco isn't exactly a huge fan of the way he's been repeatedly put out, and he thinks, too: maybe Verso would have reached out to some of the others—to Maelle—if Gustave weren't here to monopolize his energy.
But it's an idle thought, and one that he's not willing to actually do much about.
"Not overmuch morning left," Gustave says in a little hum. "Could do another few chapters in our book." The one that they're, apparently, taking turns reading to each other. "Could have you just lounge handsomely around in your undergarments for a few hours. Be a pleasant way for me to pass the time, at least."
Our book is actually the cutest thing Gustave has ever said, so it deserves a reward. "I was thinking I'd save the handsome, undressed lounging for the Continent," he says as he extricates himself from Gustave, propping up his pillow before reaching over to grab the book from the nightstand. "Give you something to look forward to."
Honestly, he is still a little nervous about the possibility of Gustave hating life on the Continent. In the span of 24 hours, he's allowed himself to have hopes and dreams about what it might be like to not be alone there. It would kill him if Gustave was secretly miserable the entire time.
But that's a worry to deal with when they come to it. He settles back against the pillow, holding out the book. Although he can't remember whose turn it is, it really feels like it should be Gustave's, mostly because he likes to listen to him talk. "What do you think about loading a duffel bag full of books for the trip?"
Yes, it's probably a waste of space, but— Gustave saw his hut. He's had, like, four books for 67 years.
Gustave is expecting it all to be a little unpleasant. Not his time with Verso, but just being out so far from what little human civilization exists in this world. His primary reason for going is research, after all, but at least it should be less grueling than the Expedition. He'd could establish a routine, a home base — and maybe, with enough time and space, he can find it in him to accept this world as it is without feeling like he's choking on air.
"I think that's an excellent idea," Gustave says when he takes the book from him, thumbing to the most recent chapter they'd finished. "I was hoping Esquie wouldn't mind a few heavy bags." Since half the team is staying behind in Lumière, he means.
Seriously: "He won't. Esquie is the strongest creature in the Canvas."
...Well.
"Provided he hasn't lost his rocks again. If that's the case, we might have to swim to the Continent." Kidding!! Mostly. Wow, he really hopes Esquie hasn't tossed those rocks somewhere. "I'll race you, if so."
"You can swim. I'm sure I can find a canoe somewhere." Gustave considers the book in his hand for a moment, before he gently nudges Verso's arm — trying to manoeuvre it just enough so that he has the space to lean back a little into his chest. It's clumsy and awkward—he's still very unused to being the one getting held—but it seems like they could both use the physical comfort.
"Sorry," he laughs after a second. "Would all be a bit easier to do if one of us were shorter, huh."
Well, he's not really used to holding anyone who isn't a gestral, so they're both learning today. It's a very sweet gesture, so—after a brief moment of confusion—he lets Gustave move him however necessary to get comfortable, before wrapping an arm around him.
This is admittedly weird. Different. Not bad, though. It feels good to have another person this close to him, and even better that it's a person he's so fond of. He wouldn't be opposed to doing this more often, he decides.
"Easy is overrated," he declares, because literally nothing about this has ever been easy. "I like your height. Your mouth is very conveniently located." Really, it's just right there across from his. Ideal.
...He does pat down the top of Gustave's hair, though. It's tickling him.
The weight of the arm against him and the warmth he can feel from Verso's body are both so much more grounding than deep breathing exercises have ever been. It's almost strange to feel more comfortable than restless; the scale doesn't seem to tip in that direction often these days.
"I can tie it back," Gustave offers, drumming his fingers gently on the open page of the book. In for a penny, in for a pound; he clears his throat after a moment and recites, careful, words that are definitely not on the page: "Give me, my love, that billing kiss I taught you one delicious night." A moment of furrowed-brow hesitation — not from uncertainty, but just from the obvious effort to remember the next line. "When, turning epicures in bliss, we tried inventions of delight. I like the way that one sounds."
Verso practically beams, grin spreading aslant across his face. He's probably thought Gustave couldn't get hotter about a million times now, but this time it's really true: Gustave has never been more attractive than when quoting poetry. It's likely not too difficult for someone as intelligent as Gustave to memorize a little poetry, but it still makes his chest feel pleasantly tingly anyway.
"A man of culture," he says with elation, making a mental note to include some books of poetry in their Continent-bound stash. Then, laughing, "Are you suggesting I need to be instructed in the art of kissing?"
Gustave rolls his head back against Verso, stalling, before he confesses, "Is that the meaning? Look, it's— surprisingly difficult to find poems that aren't about love and also really, really sad."
when i realize this poem is anachronistic but i commit to it anyway bc i like it
Luckily, Verso has been put in such a good mood that it would hardly matter if Gustave was criticizing his kissing. (All right, it would, but then he'd just segue into needing to be shown the proper way to kiss, obviously.) "Hm," he says thoughtfully, leaning his head against Gustave's.
"Love is, yea, a great thing, a great thing to me," he quotes, because of course this bitch has poetry on speed-dial. "When, having drawn across the lawn in darkness silently, a figure flits like one a-wing out from the nearest tree. A love is, yes, a great thing." A beat. "And you're a pretty good kisser, too."
Gustave abruptly wishes he were a more creative person, that he was easily able to strip back the superficial layers of the words and really understand the meaning beneath. Honestly, he was more than a little baffled to find so much of it that barely rhymed. He has no idea what this figure flitting silently across the lawn is meant to represent, or even if he's supposed to know at all.
Regardless, it sounds nice in Verso's voice, and it's easy to take silent joy in his enthusiastic reaction.
Gustave shuts his eyes, contented by the closeness. It had been— what, a week ago that he'd been almost certain he'd never see Verso again? "How much of our relationship do you think we owe to trauma bonding?" He's being wry, humor still clearly good. "Thirty, forty percent?"
Gustave isn't supposed to have his eyes closed right now, but it's nice enough to see him relaxed that Verso doesn't gripe about it. Even if he falls asleep again for the remainder of the morning, it wouldn't be the worst thing.
He doesn't much enjoy entertaining ideas about the (un)likelihood of their relationship, but since it seems to be what Gustave wants to do, it isn't the worst thing, either. Mildly unpleasant, really, like a mosquito bite. "Oof," he says, "so you're saying you wouldn't have looked twice if I weren't dark and tortured."
Mm. "Forty percent's a little high." That's, like, a lot.
Gustave seems alert enough that sleep isn't a huge risk, but for just a few moments he wants to focus on the sensation of the now: the feeling of the steady rise and fall of Verso's chest with each breath, the way the paper of the book feels under his own fingers. He tries not to wonder if everything about himself is actually just a poor facsimile of the real deal outside the canvas. If they love better, love harder. He likes to think that isn't the case, but how would he know? How could he ever?
"My thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved. I can live only wholly with you or not at all," he murmurs, wry. "And I didn't say that. I just wonder if we might have had a— more even keel."
—If he really thinks about it, they owe 100% of this relationship to the trauma. If this were real life, Gustave really wouldn't have looked his way twice, except maybe to help him cross the road. At best, Verso would be old and wrinkly, and at worst, he'd be buried. He tries not to dwell on that, though.
"Smooth," is his response to the poetry, wry amusement for wry amusement. Smooth as hell, actually, to quote a composer, even though he's certain Beethoven wasn't talking about a 100-year-old man. "Do you wish that things were different?" That they were on an even keel, or that they didn't have the so-called trauma bond.
In case Gustave is worried that he's going to overreact to the answer, he adds, "It's normal, I think. To want things to be simpler."
Gustave wishes that they could look toward a future with confidence that it wouldn't mean the end of someone they both love. He wishes Verso hadn't been stuck in this exact position for the last sixty-odd years. He wishes that the fact that he'll never truly have a legacy here in this child's sandbox didn't discourage him so much. It makes him feel selfish.
"Do I wish things were different between us?" He chews on that for a moment, voice soft more because of how close they are than because of the actual topic. "No. Unless you count daydreaming." In another world, as he'd said to both Sophie and himself countless times. "I'd like to have been the boy invited to your room to obliviously compliment your toy train."
—Whoa, whoa, whoa. He's in a good enough mood for Gustave to shit-talk his kissing skills, but there's no mood buoyant enough to allow him to refer to Verso's trains in such a way. He can't help arguing, "They're not— toys. They're... models. Scale replicas."
Gustave would have been invited to his room to 'check out his trains', and on top of being oblivious, he would have called them toys and completely destroyed Verso's ego. Truly, maybe it's for the best that things didn't turn out that way.
The defensiveness catches him off guard and totally dismisses the threat of melancholy hovering near his thoughts. Gustave brings the book to his face, vainly trying to hide the way he's left laughing at his reaction.
"'Toy' isn't an insult," he says, attempting to stifle a crooked little grin. Fuck!! It's adorable that Verso still has it in him to argue about toy trains, and Gustave laughs again. "I'm crazy about you. You make me crazy." A teasing echo, but very much not a joke.
Gustave probably has no idea what a massive relief it is for him to act like this after such a monumental confession, but it is; Verso feels tension he wasn't even consciously holding seep from between his shoulder blades. He presses his mouth to the mop of Gustave's hair, arm squeezing a little tighter. Look how far he's come since rebuffing Gustave's attempts at affection.
"You think you're crazy about me now," he says, voice sounding ridiculously pleased, a complete 180 to the misery in it this morning. "Wait until I put a door on our house."
Okay. Well. 'House' is a really nice term for what it is. But he can't keep calling it a hut.
There's a not-insignificant part of Gustave that's made nervous by the easy affection, by the way they've slotted themselves comfortable in here. It still feels too easy, somehow — like maybe this contentment is entirely a result of the both of them lying to themselves.
"Our house? We just started dating and we're jumping straight to home co-ownership?" As if any one single thing about this courtship has been normal. He snorts, expression fond, and turns enough to bump a kiss against the side of Verso's neck. "I'm expecting one hell of a door now."
"It's, uh, less a home and more a..." Hm. "Rundown shack." If he has to name it accurately. And he'd been trying to be gracious in calling it 'ours' instead of 'mine' when Gustave will be living there too, but—
"You can be my tenant instead. But I do expect rent, in that case."
Wow, Gustave will sleep with a murderer, but he draws the line at landlords. "I thought we'd established a firmly neighbourly relationship." He is of course just bullshitting here, but yeah okay he doesn't actually want to think right now about all of the work that's going to go into making that rundown shack liveable.
He rolls his head back, thoughtful. "Or would you consider something long-distance? Some of those vacant apartments in Old Lumière seemed nice." And also like absolutely tragic relics of the past, and also kind of lopsided?
"Works for me," Verso says lightly, although he can't help but wonder if maybe Gustave would be happier with some distance. It might be healthy. Give him a little more perspective. Of course, that perspective would probably lead to him figuring out he's not so keen on sleeping with a murderer, either, so it's difficult to push him in that direction.
"If you won't be living there, then I won't have to put the door up."
"You'll take any excuse you can to live in the world's most terrifying conditions, won't you?" Gently, he knocks into Verso's side with his flesh and bone elbow. "You're meant to act put out, not to immediately call my bluff."
"I did that last time you threatened to be neighbors," he points out. "I thought you'd get bored if I didn't switch it up."
But clearly Gustave is going to complain no matter what he does. Very sweet, but impossible to please! Verso sighs melodramatically, then recites with the same amount of theatricality, "Please don't stay in Old Lumière. Without your light, I'm liable to wither away like a flower in winter."
"Better," Gustave says, settling the open book back into his lap again with a chuckle. God, it's going to be hard after letting himself get comfortable here on the island again, but at least they'll be able to settle in one place. He can't really imagine putting down roots out on the Continent, but it's not so dire to think of it as home for a while.
"Alright, alright. Reading now, if you still want."
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But it's an idle thought, and one that he's not willing to actually do much about.
"Not overmuch morning left," Gustave says in a little hum. "Could do another few chapters in our book." The one that they're, apparently, taking turns reading to each other. "Could have you just lounge handsomely around in your undergarments for a few hours. Be a pleasant way for me to pass the time, at least."
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Honestly, he is still a little nervous about the possibility of Gustave hating life on the Continent. In the span of 24 hours, he's allowed himself to have hopes and dreams about what it might be like to not be alone there. It would kill him if Gustave was secretly miserable the entire time.
But that's a worry to deal with when they come to it. He settles back against the pillow, holding out the book. Although he can't remember whose turn it is, it really feels like it should be Gustave's, mostly because he likes to listen to him talk. "What do you think about loading a duffel bag full of books for the trip?"
Yes, it's probably a waste of space, but— Gustave saw his hut. He's had, like, four books for 67 years.
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"I think that's an excellent idea," Gustave says when he takes the book from him, thumbing to the most recent chapter they'd finished. "I was hoping Esquie wouldn't mind a few heavy bags." Since half the team is staying behind in Lumière, he means.
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...Well.
"Provided he hasn't lost his rocks again. If that's the case, we might have to swim to the Continent." Kidding!! Mostly. Wow, he really hopes Esquie hasn't tossed those rocks somewhere. "I'll race you, if so."
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"Sorry," he laughs after a second. "Would all be a bit easier to do if one of us were shorter, huh."
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This is admittedly weird. Different. Not bad, though. It feels good to have another person this close to him, and even better that it's a person he's so fond of. He wouldn't be opposed to doing this more often, he decides.
"Easy is overrated," he declares, because literally nothing about this has ever been easy. "I like your height. Your mouth is very conveniently located." Really, it's just right there across from his. Ideal.
...He does pat down the top of Gustave's hair, though. It's tickling him.
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"I can tie it back," Gustave offers, drumming his fingers gently on the open page of the book. In for a penny, in for a pound; he clears his throat after a moment and recites, careful, words that are definitely not on the page: "Give me, my love, that billing kiss I taught you one delicious night." A moment of furrowed-brow hesitation — not from uncertainty, but just from the obvious effort to remember the next line. "When, turning epicures in bliss, we tried inventions of delight. I like the way that one sounds."
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"A man of culture," he says with elation, making a mental note to include some books of poetry in their Continent-bound stash. Then, laughing, "Are you suggesting I need to be instructed in the art of kissing?"
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when i realize this poem is anachronistic but i commit to it anyway bc i like it
"Love is, yea, a great thing, a great thing to me," he quotes, because of course this bitch has poetry on speed-dial. "When, having drawn across the lawn in darkness silently, a figure flits like one a-wing out from the nearest tree. A love is, yes, a great thing." A beat. "And you're a pretty good kisser, too."
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Regardless, it sounds nice in Verso's voice, and it's easy to take silent joy in his enthusiastic reaction.
Gustave shuts his eyes, contented by the closeness. It had been— what, a week ago that he'd been almost certain he'd never see Verso again? "How much of our relationship do you think we owe to trauma bonding?" He's being wry, humor still clearly good. "Thirty, forty percent?"
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He doesn't much enjoy entertaining ideas about the (un)likelihood of their relationship, but since it seems to be what Gustave wants to do, it isn't the worst thing, either. Mildly unpleasant, really, like a mosquito bite. "Oof," he says, "so you're saying you wouldn't have looked twice if I weren't dark and tortured."
Mm. "Forty percent's a little high." That's, like, a lot.
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"My thoughts go out to you, my immortal beloved. I can live only wholly with you or not at all," he murmurs, wry. "And I didn't say that. I just wonder if we might have had a— more even keel."
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"Smooth," is his response to the poetry, wry amusement for wry amusement. Smooth as hell, actually, to quote a composer, even though he's certain Beethoven wasn't talking about a 100-year-old man. "Do you wish that things were different?" That they were on an even keel, or that they didn't have the so-called trauma bond.
In case Gustave is worried that he's going to overreact to the answer, he adds, "It's normal, I think. To want things to be simpler."
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"Do I wish things were different between us?" He chews on that for a moment, voice soft more because of how close they are than because of the actual topic. "No. Unless you count daydreaming." In another world, as he'd said to both Sophie and himself countless times. "I'd like to have been the boy invited to your room to obliviously compliment your toy train."
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Gustave would have been invited to his room to 'check out his trains', and on top of being oblivious, he would have called them toys and completely destroyed Verso's ego. Truly, maybe it's for the best that things didn't turn out that way.
"...They're very adult," he finishes.
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"'Toy' isn't an insult," he says, attempting to stifle a crooked little grin. Fuck!! It's adorable that Verso still has it in him to argue about toy trains, and Gustave laughs again. "I'm crazy about you. You make me crazy." A teasing echo, but very much not a joke.
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"You think you're crazy about me now," he says, voice sounding ridiculously pleased, a complete 180 to the misery in it this morning. "Wait until I put a door on our house."
Okay. Well. 'House' is a really nice term for what it is. But he can't keep calling it a hut.
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"Our house? We just started dating and we're jumping straight to home co-ownership?" As if any one single thing about this courtship has been normal. He snorts, expression fond, and turns enough to bump a kiss against the side of Verso's neck. "I'm expecting one hell of a door now."
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"You can be my tenant instead. But I do expect rent, in that case."
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He rolls his head back, thoughtful. "Or would you consider something long-distance? Some of those vacant apartments in Old Lumière seemed nice." And also like absolutely tragic relics of the past, and also kind of lopsided?
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"If you won't be living there, then I won't have to put the door up."
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God! Flirting is hard, why does anyone do it!
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But clearly Gustave is going to complain no matter what he does. Very sweet, but impossible to please! Verso sighs melodramatically, then recites with the same amount of theatricality, "Please don't stay in Old Lumière. Without your light, I'm liable to wither away like a flower in winter."
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"Alright, alright. Reading now, if you still want."
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