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Verso doesn't ask if 'time to go' means when Gustave leaves tonight or when Verso and Monoco leave forever.

"Luckily for you, I'm feeling very magnanimous." A forgiving soul. He grins at Gustave, faint and sloping. "Must be something about those big, brown eyes." A pause, and he spears a pepper with his fork. "...Or maybe the hanger"—because if they have the word 'bromance', they surely have the word 'hanger'—"is just receding."

There's a dull thwack from the kitchen, and Gustave cringes visibly. He hesitates, then stands, moving to drop down lightly into the spot Monoco had been occupying until now. He dips down, pressing a quick kiss to Verso's shoulder. "Hey. It really is good to see you. You think your roommate will mind if I stick around to read a while?"

Verso gets the distinct feeling that Gustave is only saying this to distract him from the fact that a Gestral is currently tossing knives in his kitchen, but, well. He's easy. He sets his plate down on the coffee table before shifting to look at Gustave, blurting out, "I'll kick him out of the bedroom, if you want."

It's a good thing Monoco isn't here to listen to this. Verso can actually feel how pathetic this sounds, but he can't help it; Gustave only just got here, and he doesn't want him to just make dinner and leave.

With a shrug: "There isn't... that much fur on the duvet."

Gustave doesn't seem to find it pathetic; if anything, he just seems a little guiltily relieved. "I can handle a little fur." He pauses, then laughs, dragging his hand down his face. "God, why is this so awkward? We've had sex in the woods. Why is it weird now?"

Well, it doesn't feel great to know that Gustave thinks this is awkward, considering how hard he's been trying to be charming this whole evening. He's right, of course, this is awkward, but Verso had at least hoped that he'd been able to cancel some of it out.

Is it weird because you know somewhere deep down that this is a mistake? he doesn't ask, because he doesn't want to ask stupid questions that he already knows the answer to. Instead, his initial response is a flippant, "I thought I was doing a good job," followed by a much more sincere worrying of his lip. "Is it, uh... too weird?"

Gustave shakes his head at that, nudging Verso in the ribs lightly with his elbow. "You were doing a good job. I'm the one who shouldn't be allowed out in public, honestly." The question seems to catch him off guard, though, and he gives Verso a slightly baffled look. "You're worth a little weirdness. I was just- apologising."

Verso had asked because Gustave's mood has tipped into 'slightly dour' a few times tonight, and it all being too weird could certainly have been the reason why. He doesn't push, though. It's the Dessendre way to leave a wound alone until it's so badly infected that it can't be ignored.

"A few bottles might have been the right call." Hearkening back to the wine. "A couple of those, and you won't know the meaning of the word 'awkward' anymore."

"I'm never going to hear the end of it if I go home drunk tonight," Gustave says, but it's not a no. He isn't beating the 'slightly dour' allegations, mostly because he's wondering if he should tell Verso that he's not worth Verso hanging around for; that if he wants to go, he should. But it's a strangely intense sentiment, and he's honestly not sure why he's suddenly struck with this sentiment.

"I think we're just both out of practice. With the 'relationship' thing," he says, and then relents, adding what they both know: "It's not— irresponsible, do you think? We shouldn't be— spending our time more productively?"

"Irresponsible is my middle name," comes quickly, without thought. "It's a family name."

Honestly, it might as well be. But he feels somewhat chastened by the question, even though he doubts it was Gustave's intention to cast aspersions. A little defensiveness bubbles up in his chest; he's been productive for nearly seventy years, and he's tired. More still, he was going to be productive by never returning to Lumière, but Gustave hadn't liked that, either. No matter what he does, no one is pleased.

Again, he says none of this, because it's much healthier to build up silent resentment instead.

"...I am trying to be productive." By staying away from Maelle. The less attached she is to him, the better.

"No, I didn't mean— I am, too." But Gustave isn't trying hard enough, is he? He's going on dates, making dinner, daydreaming about Verso sleeping peacefully with his head in his lap. "Don't listen to me, I'm just tired. I can get mercurial. I'm grateful for you."

He'd been vaguely irritated every moment his attention had been required somewhere else; maybe that was part of the problem. Selfishly, selfishly, he resented the fact that he wasn't here instead.

Verso frowns. He's out of practice, yes, but he's pretty sure that relationships aren't supposed to be quite this much work. Then again, his last relationship ended in homicide, so perhaps he isn't the expert on healthy romance.

"Mon chéri," he says, softly. "Tell me how to make you happy."

Because clearly he isn't, despite Verso's best efforts. It doesn't make him happy to face reality, and it doesn't make him happy to live in delusion. Verso's running out of options.

Gustave doesn't mean to look surprised by that request, but— it's absurd, isn't it? Verso does understand that it's absurd? Happy isn't in the cards until he's sure Maelle is safe, until he's worked out this strange snarl of anxiety that's taken root in his chest, all tangled up in his ribcage. He knows that he can't make Verso happy; he thought their mutual misery was just implied.

"I don't need more from you," he says, and then continues on quickly, because he doesn't want Verso to misunderstand. "I can't— You're the only person—" Gustave cuts himself off, then swears softly. "I trust you. With me. So just— a little patience for me, maybe. While I sort my own head out."

Yeah, he's pretty sure healthy relationships don't involve asking how to make the other person happy and essentially getting the response of you can't.

"Okay," he says, even though it makes him feel a little helpless. No, he can still get a good grade in Being A Boyfriend. He just has to do it better. "I can be very patient. I once waited ten years for Monoco to admit he stole my hairbrush."

Gustave imagines he'd be met with pretty much the Exact Same Answer if he'd hit Verso with that question. "Must've been a great hairbrush," he muses, and be tries to coax Verso into a quick kiss, like he can fully telegraph an apology for bringing down the mood. "Did he own up to it, or are you still waiting?"

"Finally caught him using it." Verso doesn't feel very light right now, but the memory makes his mouth quirk slightly up regardless. "Don't believe him if he pretends not to be vain."

He pauses. "I wouldn't be opposed to some of that ill-begotten wine right about now." The mood is in the gutter, and although he doesn't want to ask Gustave to leave, he doesn't want to keep him here with this depressing atmosphere.

Another thwack from the kitchen. "—But I should probably be the one to brave Monoco's throwing daggers."

It's greedy again: he'd rather be here in a bad mood than at home in a good mood, but he doesn't know how to say that without it coming on too strong, too weird. 'I thought we were going to wallow together.' So he just cringes instead at the sound, rubbing at his face again.

"I'll, uh, handle the repairs." 'When you move out' is implied here, but he doesn't want to voice the words. "I'm clever enough, I'm sure I can figure it out."

"He can cook and he's handy. What can't he do?"

Verso leaves him with a brief touch of the shoulder, making his way back to the kitchen where he has to quickly sidestep an incoming knife. Muffled: "Monoco!" "Oh, don't be such a baby. You dodged, didn't you?"

When he returns, the bottle is already uncorked; he'd taken a few sips in the kitchen after the harrowing near-miss of a knife to his face. With a cant of his head toward his (and Monoco's) open bedroom door, he says, "I'd recommend a change of scenery if you don't want to listen to Monoco's... home renovations." To put it politely.

Gustave is already on his feet when Verso returns, his eyes tracking down his face and then his body to check for injury. Ridiculous, maybe, considering his immortality, but he doesn't love seeing him injured, regardless.

"I'll take them back on the way out," he promises, snagging the book he'd started last time from the shelf on the way to the bedroom. "At least he's staying sharp?"

Verso shuts the bedroom door behind him with a foot, not because he has any real intention of doing anything that isn't Monoco-friendly, but because he'd rather not listen to the sound of Monoco ruining their kitchen. He can already tell he's going to spend all of tomorrow dealing with Monoco's pleas for more weaponry he can play with— er, 'hone his warrior's skills with'.

God. He takes a swig. At least Monoco keeps things interesting.

He sets the bottle on the desk after that, leaning against it. The paint set on it is still untouched, probably unsurprisingly. "Should I forget you're here again? I seem to recall you liking that."

Gustave isn't fully certain if the weariness he feels is physical or mental, and he does his best to shake it off. He follows Verso to the desk, reaching to grab the bottle.

"Ideally, you'd always be extremely aware of where I am in proximity to you," he says, which is his fucking nerdy way of saying 'please notice me,' and he takes a pull from the wine. "But I do like just existing near you." He smiles wryly at him. "Bit clingy, isn't it."

"Not quite the word I was thinking of," he quips, cheeks dimpling despite his best judgment. Cute is the word he's thinking of!!! Why does Gustave have to be so cute. :( Can't a guy just be doomed in peace?

"I am, in fact, excruciatingly aware of your proximity." A terminal one-upper. He nudges Gustave with a knee. "At all times."

"Is that why you're lounging attractively against the desk this time, or is that just incidental?" On a whim, Gustave reaches for Verso's hand to pull it to his mouth. He presses a lingering kiss to the back of his fingers before releasing him, drifting over to the window. "Monoco really has made himself at home, huh." He's pleased about it; it's good that Verso has companionship.

It's incidental lounging!! This is just how he lounges.

"They say home is where the throwing knives are, I think."

But he'd been finding ways to entertain himself before that, too. Honestly, Verso expects that he might have been lonely in Lumière. Out on the Continent, he's just another person; here, he's a novelty. Besides, it's normal to feel homesick, even if your home is a rundown train station filled with Grandis.

"But he's eager to go back to the Continent." The only reason he hasn't already is probably because he's hesitant to leave Verso behind; he feels a pang of guilt at that. Even without trying, Verso manages to make everyone who cares about him unhappy. "Things... make more sense out there."

"Sure," Gustave says, and he bites his tongue, figures acknowledging the fact that Verso is definitely talking about himself will just end up hurting both of their feelings. He thinks again about telling him to go back, that he'll handle Maelle, but he doesn't know if he can. Isn't sure if Verso just disappearing would make things easier or harder with her — it wasn't like it made much of a difference with Aline.

"How did you pass the time? When you weren't... babysitting wayward Expeditioners." He sits on the edge of the bed just for lack of other seating, glancing briefly at the unopened paint supplies. It didn't seem like creative endeavors brought him much joy.

"Babysitting," he echoes, amused. (And a little guilty; not all of it was 'babysitting'. There'd been a time when he'd worked against the Expeditions. When he'd thought this was all worth it to live.) "If babysitting involves trying to keep them from getting eaten by giant monsters, sure."

It's not that different, he supposes. Expeditioners aren't so different from toddlers that are determined to kill themselves.

As for the question, he shrugs. "I lived in the mountains with Monoco for a while. Fought Nevrons to pass the time." There wasn't much else to do out there. "Participated in a few Gestral competitions." Another shrug— "Tried to teach Esquie to play chess, but his hands are too big for the pieces."

So, not a lot.

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